mask

winnie panicker

Even when the bond of love held me so tight

And tangled itself into a knot that seemed unbreakable,

And I felt as though the ultimatum of my life had reached,

Silent prayers yet were chanted for a fear that lay instilled.

Wasn’t expected to strike so hard and right into my heart,

Like a piercing arrow just digging deep and splurging out the red, red blood

And I felt as though my heart could absorb no more

And it heated up so high, only to melt away into nothingness.

Just feels as though the triumph to end up on a happy note,

Was just not mellowing into a peaceful river, and it felt as though

more prickly stones were thrown and thrown only to strike me so hard

and still so beaten, so soggy in the tears that dripped down my eyes , a hope still remains.

As saturated as one can get, where no more can be absorbed,

Everything else just seems to hit the periphery and bounce back into ether,

And my heart overflows, and tumbles, broken, and it weeps to find no ending,

And yet,

I wear the mask of happiness, just smiling away into the deeper depths of painful sadness.